Holy crap this is scary.

My brain is warm with the possibilities of a writing career. Though, the more I read and research, the more I realize this is going to be fucking hard as fuck. Like, seriously. You talk about diamonds being the toughest substance on earth? Take this herculean task, and condense it and your diamonds are now buttery cheese. That somehow made sense, I think. Either way, this is gonna be… rough.

I think it’ll all come down to whether or not the actual content of my book is good (whether it’s a good story, keeps you involved, has interesting plot points, etc. I’m not quite sure my story is that good right now, but with a little chiseling, I think it might be). I also think another HUGE (read: gigantanormously gargantuatanic) part of it is being a prolific writer. I’m talking about like, writing all the time, forever, in every spare second of your life, kind of prolific writer. I can’t even put into words how to convey this.

I just need to write.

And here I thought I was doing pretty good. 14 chapters (about half of the book) in under a month. Apparently I need 14 chapters in 14 days. And even that’s slow. Maybe I’ll just write up for the first 3 books before release, and build up a cushion while I write the other ones.

I know my blog is full of “omg dis writing ting is so scurry” and “oh what do?” and “amigaw  never gonna give it up, never gonna let me down, never gonna run around, and not wriiiite yooooou”, but seriously! I don’t know whether to be afraid or motivated. I’m a little of both. It’s kind of like wanting to climb a mountain, but crapping yourself out of fear on the way up. (Too much? Sorry ’bout that.)

Maybe I’m sleep deprived, and this is where the random ranmble is coming from.

Either way, I need to get serious(er) about this writing thing. I was serious before, but the amount of seriousness that I went from before I started, to when I actually started is the amount of seriousness I need to get serious again. Seriously. (If you didn’t understand that, don’t worry, I didn’t understand most of if either, and I wrote it.)

In short: Omg, need to write more.